In August 2017, an IAS officer of Buxar district decided to end his life as he was ‘fed up with life’ and his belief in “human existence has gone”, as mentioned in his long suicide note. According to police investigations, 29-year-old Mukesh Pandey ended his life due to marital discord.
On August 11, 2017, Mukesh was found lying dead on the railway tracks in Ghaziabad with his head cut off from his body. Mukesh allegedly died of suicide by throwing himself under a train. Just a week prior to his death, Pandey had taken charge as the top official of Bihar’s Buxar district.
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The deceased IAS officer was survived by his wife and two-month-old daughter. Pandey was an intelligent individual and had also secured the all-India 14th position in the 2012 Union Public Service Examination (UPSC) — considered to be one of the toughest competitive examination in India that helps select the country’s top officials. The body was identified from the documents found with it. The death was extremely tormenting as Mukesh’s head was separated from the torso.
A note was recovered from his body which stated that he had left a detailed suicide note in his Delhi hotel room. The note read,
I am committing suicide out of my own volition. I am committing suicide in the district center area of Janakpuri in West Delhi by jumping off the 10th floor of the building. I am fed up with life and my belief in human existence has gone.
My detailed suicide note is kept in a Nike bag in room 742 of a five-star hotel in Delhi. I’m sorry, I love you all! Please forgive me.
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Pandey’s body was recovered at around 9pm from the railway tracks by a team of Government Railway Police. On Thursday, August 10, 2017, he had checked into the Leela Palace Hotel in Delhi during the day. Pandey, not only left a suicide note, but also recorded a video at Buxar Circuit House in Bihar in which he talked about how fed up was he with his life. In his five minute long video, Mukesh said,
My parents and wife have a constant tussle. Their tussle has made my life difficult. They love me a lot but excess of everything is bad. My wife loves me a lot and even I love her. There is a lot of turmoil in my married life. She is an extrovert and has an aggressive personality. I am an introvert and peace-loving person.
Mukesh also spoke about the differences with his wife mentioning they were like “chalk and cheese”. He also mentioned why he went to Delhi to end his life and how he had to lie to his family about it. The video concluded,
Nobody is to be blamed for my suicide. I have lost the will to live.
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A resident of Bihar’s Saran district, Pandey joined as the district magistrate of Buxar on August 4. His wife and daughter were yet to shift to to Buxar. He was earlier posted as deputy development commissioner at Katihar. His first positing was as sub-divisional officer, Balia, in Bihar’s Begusarai district. After his matriculation and higher secondary education in Assam, Pandey graduated in English from Guwahati’s prestigious Cotton College.
Sources said Pandey was married in 2014 into a prominent business family, which has a car showroom in Patna.
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Suicide Prevention Contact Details:
Men in distress due to family problems and threats of false cases can contact either of the NGOs listed here: Men Welfare Trust, MyNation Hope Foundation, Save Indian Family Foundation, Vaastav Foundation
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